Realizations

What is one thing you would change about yourself?

Im full of tears at any moment in hear in my head the words “change and me”   id like to change that.

Id like to know what happened to me when I thought I had to become a different me. So for what ever reason me agreed with that theory and created different versions of me.

All my versions creating paths that earned a name and a reality.

The strongest me is ‘shae’ of me.  She is like we got this . We want this, we will do this  . 💪 all the while knowing she only was created the first time ‘Lashae felt surviving didnt need to be an options we’ll talk more on her. . Shae knows how to smile why heart broken, knows how to stay in conversation and during every break can break down in tears just to wipe’em, get back to the convo like nothing was ever happening. Shae knew and knows how to protect herself from reacting to triggers and instead responding accordingly and accepting defeat as it is given only to disguise it as a learning case.

……..so Shae-Nitty came to regulate and inspire and one day may expire when lashae is last alive breathing.

So I’ll change the inferiority i deplete within me to allow change to come to its fruition in ways self needs be .